How I despise you.
For reason that are personal. I hate you, your trolling, the way you tease people. I wish he would kick your ass and murder you.
I’ve discovered that somewhere around there, I admire you. Admire your ability to cut everyone off. Not to be trusted. I admire your ability to be the little sleezebag that you are.
I don’t know why I admire these qualities.
But I do.
I kind of actually wish I was you.